See u all soon

I have taken to not just looking at nature and the world and the elements and how they all integrate, but the last three years have taught me to look deeper into my fellow man.  And I will get into that in depth later on and in another place on this site, but I have been exposed to and have seen, and watched (and regrettably experienced) the harsh reality of what social pressures, and the world in general can do to people, and how it can change us.

The harsh reality of today’s modern world is that it is highly stressful.  Especially when it comes to living a normal life (on the outside and in view of fellow humanity) and “Fitting in”  People often, behind closed doors find alternative ways to help alleviate that stress and pressure.  A lot of  people are falling onto a dark path to cope with the way the world is.  And it is very sad.  And people who stand out, or are different or don’t share main stream social “should and should not rules” are doing the same way,  To me this is the worst thing of all on the humanity scale.

Recently I found a program called “The Cleaner”, and let me tell you.  If you do not want to see the darker nature depicted honestly, and RAW, I recommend you not watch it.  It is full of truth about the way things are that most ignore now.

Sadly I also know that in simply putting the words there, you will watch it to see what the hell I am talking about.  And this is a good thing.  Society needs to be aware, that not only are we destroying what we are walking on, but individually, we are doing everything we can to hide from the stress and pressure.  And some just do it to “Feel something else”.  So do me a favor, give it a chance, and watch these three clips, and check it out.  And use my contact info if you want to talk about it or need help.  Ill point you to where you can find it….and if not, I’ll listen.  Sometimes that is all a person needs sometimes….Someone to listen to, an objective stranger and third party….

Any Way, click on “The Cleaner” for that page….If you so choose

O.K. enough of the serious soap box on that subject…on ward and upward………………And a slightly different twist on a question I have been asking for a long time….

Now a question for you…..

Trials, and constant change, not to mention high amounts of stress, does that help shape you and make you a better person when you finally find a place to catch your breath?  Well I for one would like to think so.

I have moved 18 times since June of 2006, and trust me, it has been very chaotic, and I lost so much weight, and quickly suffice it to say, that my skin is still playing catch up.  Don’t get me wrong, living for 7 months in Northern New Mexico was great.  Read below before I get into the new introduction.

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For 7 months I was living north of Taos New Mexico, in San Cristobal. And trust me a Floridian, moving to no humidity, and above 10 thousand feet. AND in winter…sighs…initially for the first time I got to see the seasons turn…

Did you know that Aspens, when they turn gold, sound like chimes when the wind blows? All of the decades and never did I really comprehend fully the turning of the wheel until I saw what happens. I drove the Enchanted Circle, toWheelers Peak in the beginning of October….and stopped on the side of the road…and sat…and listened to the wind speaking through the beauty of gold aspen leaves. And to my luck and amazement, about 500 feet down, was a stream. I remember, thinking and comparing the smells and sounds, and the FEEL of the earth preparing to sleep (unlike the evergreen environment of south Florida).

And to be completely honest…LOL I did learn how to snowboard…and YES, I did run naked in the Taos ski valley on Yule…hehe COLD COLD COLD I’m laughing remembering it. But yet, I left a very good job because of the people there. Even the Taos Indians (The Tiwa) who haven’t changed for over a thousand years, put up with the small town crap. DAMN, the first night I got there, I swear to you…EVERY star, indeed, thinking about it, I saw the stretch of the milky way. And it blew my mind. In the lap of pure beauty, and nature, including coyotes walking by your window at night. NO ONE there appreciated what they were living in. Not even the natives.  And the silence, it was, well, amazing.

I find it ironic, that I had to come back to a bigger population, to feel more connected to the powers and elements. Thus is the reason for this…A simple question…Can, in a place of beauty, and mankind, through his cynicism, and trend of thinking of only self and self gratification, be taken for granted and become SO blind to the beauty around them, that, collectively, they can and do completely RUIN and kill what we all need.

A lot of you have followed this and other sites  have….and I thank u.  And as u know…..no fear…face challenges…and adapt..And I thank all of you for sticking by me these last 3 VERY chaotic years.  And I can tell you, sometimes to grow and move on, you must cut all things, take your losses and hopefully learn form them.  And I have done just that, and I have moved from my beloved state of Florida to New Mexico to start over.  And I really love the aspect of marriage…you know, the trusting and helping one another, the commitment and love behind it?  I miss that dearly.  I am hoping I will find it again one day, but for now, I am getting used to snow and mountains here in Taos   And I KNOW I am not going to miss hurricanes…hehe.

Any hooooooo,  I’ll update more this Sunday.

Anyway, needless to say, I moved back to down south, back to the lush green and humidity.  And for the first time in 4 years, it is raining regularly here again.  Perhaps this year, finally, Florida wont have to worry so much about water restrictions and fires well, one can hope anyway.

For now, I am staying secluded, and acclimating to being back down south, and much has changed, and it is sad watching the Shuttle being mothballed in order to bring newer and more modern ones into play.  But it is sad for me because I was here, and watched it happen.  And I meet a lot of the people who went up in the first 7 years.  I even got to watch the end of the moon missions.  I am very proud of being an American every time I watch the shuttle go up, and I love the sonic boom when it comes back down.  And nothing is more spectacular than a night launch on the beach.  The waves turn golden.  I imagine you have to see it to understand.

I don’t even mind knowing that I will have to face hurricanes again, but that is better than digging your car out of 5 feet of snow J .

I will add more later, but I just wanted to update my friends, and to let you know I am happy and doing alright.